Cassie should have known that something was wrong when Prin was excited to go home. If only she didn't have class, she wouldn't have left the older woman alone. Class had been a bore and the only salvation was the early dismissal to scout for good shots with her digicam. It wasn't long before her phone gave that familiar buzzing sound, saying that she had two messages.

"Cas, where are you, we're at The Usual. We'll wait for you. =)"

She had to get home and was about to reply that she'd just pass by, but thought of checking the other message first.

"Cas, I'm at the donut shop. Where are you, I need help with Prin."

Her brother would not ask help for anything in the world unless it was going home early or some new gadget out on sale. "What happened?"

"She's drunk at the bar near the donut shop."

Not stopping to think, Cassie ran at full speed to The Usual, a small old restaurant that she and her friends frequent to get together. Sadly, tonight, there was no stopping to grab a bite. Nika, Nithel and Rai were still happily discussing plans for their hiking trip the next day that she felt slightly guilty to pop the bubble. "Guys, I need manpower...." she muttered, leaning on Nithel's and Rai's backrests. When they all gave her questioning looks, she explained the situation and they returned her grave looks, standing in unison.

"Let's go." Nithel muttered seriously with Rai nodding his agreement. Nika on the other hand, waved her hands in a stopping motion as if to say 'wait'.

"We haven't paid yet."

~~~~~

"I'm not drunk! I an not drunk! I AM NOT DRUNK!"

The scene that greeted them made Cas feel the need to melt into the ground and disappear. Her brother was barely containing Prin from going berserk and run after the guy who ditched her with the bill. While Prin got to break into a run to run after the guy, Cas had asked the guard and the waitress how much was needed to be paid. And while the guard and waitress joined the chase (which was oddly uncanny, because there was no way to make a running drunkard pay), Cas computed and the bill amounted to what Nika computed as 'ten good budget meals or a nice big pizza plus dessert and some iced tea'. Cas muttered strings of curses to herself as she watched Nithel, Rai and her brother bring back a complaining Prin into the bar. "I AM NOT DRUNK! I WILL PUNCH THAT GUY WHEN I SEE HIM! I WILL GET MY MONEY FROM HIM, HE WILL PAY!" Cas didn't have enough money. What would she do? It was giving her a headache. Why, oh why did she pick her up and help her... it would have been so much easier to have picked up a dog or a cat. At least they were easier to handle.

"She stepped on my foot..." Nithel stated, snapping Cas out of her reverie. She gave her friend a sympathetic look and down to his feet that were almost not protected by his slippers. "She stepped on it with her boot heel."

"Ouch..." she winced, grimacing apologetically. "So sorry for the trouble..." Cas said, apologizing twice for the mess. "I have another request though... I don't have enough money to pay for the bill." But before she could ask, her friend handed the money she needed. Needless to say, she was indebted to them more than cash. I crushed foot, too, she guessed. Soon they were on their way in the cab with the still complaining Prin. And Cas made the mistake of letting her brother sit in the back with Prin. Least to say, her brother got harassed. Luckily there was a chance to swap and they did.

"You're like angels, you saved my life~ I love you~" Prin was singsonging along the way, clinging to Cassie's arm, complaining again about the guy who ditched her and then started to cry about her problems in life, wanting to go home, wanting to be with her babies, why did her folks did not like her, and all that she was muttering into Cassie's favorite jacket. Plus the make-up smudging on it. If she could have cried about it then and there, she would have.

"I don't want to go in the house, just come back for me in the morning~" Prin said as they stepped out of the cab, sitting on the sidewalk. "I've been a bad girl, you're going to kick me out tomorrow anyway." Cassie said nothing but just dragged her into the house with the help of her Aunt who came rushing out of the house when her brother told her what happened. "No, just leave me here~~" Prin kept saying, making herself heavier and refusing to move. Cassie could not take it anymore and slapped the drunken woman, hoping to put sense into her. Sadly, it didn't, and instead she was wondering who slapped her.

I thought it would work... she thought sadly, escorting the older woman into the house and up into the attic, letting her cry on her until she stopped long enough to get her to drink their mom's special tea for drunkenness. She had half-hoped that the tea would work instantly, but it didn't. Once the cup had been emptied, she started putting her accessories into the cup and Cas had to grab it from her and tip the bracelets and earrings out.

"I'm sorry~ I love you~" Prin muttered, giggling a bit. Cas just nodded and ordered her to get into her house clothes so they could eat. "I'm not drunk, I'm just pretending to be drunk.." the older woman continued to mutter, removing her clothes and putting on her pants. Halfway in putting on pants, the drunken woman looked at Cas with eyes half-closed and cornered her to the wall and just stared.

Cas blinked, feeling a bit of her hair on her nape stand on end. "What?" she asked coolly, looking at Prin with a neutral expression.

"I love you..." Prin muttered, caressing Cassie's face with one hand.

Cas merely nodded, slightly smiling as if to say 'I know that already, you said it more than thrice'.


"Can I kiss you?"

WTF! She felt alarm run through her blood, but after what she went through that day, she already felt numb and managed to keep a strong facade and shook her head. "No." she answered, pushing the older woman away and made her look for her shirt. "Now get dressed so we can eat."

Prin nodded absently, thankfully following Cassie's orders and was soon dressed presentably to eat dinner. Cassie had to make sure that the older woman wouldn't fall off the stairs as they went down, and at the sight of Cassie's mother, Prin ran toward her and hugged her tightly, apologizing over and over again. Cassie watched from the distance in the kitchen, cooking noodles for their small dinner. She checked the time, only two hours had passed since then.


It had been a long night...

Yeah, that thingy that's been out in commercials. But this isn't related to that. :P

A friend of mine was having problems with the restaurant setting for their movie project for one of their broadcasting subjects. Luckily, I knew of one, owned by my friend's sister. And so, when they had their shooting this morning, I was there to witness the events and take candid shots of the actors.

And lo and behold! As my friend was testing the camera angle and had me on the set to get the angles right, her groupmates decided to include me as a sort of trial run. So there I was, sitting in front of their handsome lead actor, frantic for I had no idea how to act, even in such a small scene. (That's why I took Psychology in the first place, I hated the camera. DDD8)

I was instructed to sit properly, lean a bit forward to make the scene a bit intimate, to appear like it was a real date. The voices weren't necessary because the shot was for only a short while, just to show the monotony of the life of a playboy so we just had to talk about anything, and make just appear that it was sweet. On the first trial shoot, all he said, with a smiling face was: "Sa UP ka rin ba nag-aaral?" which I replied to with "Yes" with a shy smile. On the second shoot, he was instructed to hold my hand and make it look like a very sweet conversation. And in an normal girl brain so close to such a cute guy, my automatic thought was: "OMGWTFTHISISREALLYEMBARRASSINGYETCOOLATTHESAMETIME... DDD8"

When the "three, two, one... action." was said, he smiled so sweetly and took my hand with such grace and suave (plus caress) that made me blush and all he said was:

"Trabaho lang to. :D"

With all that grace and wafu, omaigad I just died of holding in laughter because of such a line. If only people could have heard what he said, if only the conversations mattered, that would have been a really ironic moment.... *rolls in laughter*

Sauch a fun and weird day... and I enjoyed every bit of it... :3

Jiamppong anyone? xD

I just feel sad... I've been in a relationship for almost a year now.. and then, he says that he's afraid of losing me just because I seem happier with other people than when I'm with him... I don't know, it somehow feels that he's right.. but why do I feel that, I don't know.

Today, I talked with a friend, and she told me that if he was just like that, then she wouldn't even have helped him, helped us get together. She said that one of our common friends was shocked to find out that my boyfriend was 'only' him. He couldn't even take care of me. I deserved someone better according to them. It feels just a bit too late that they say these kinds of things, and we ARE trying to fix up our relationship in the first place, and I'm not about to give that up, no matter how hard it'll be.

No matter what they say, what I've been through, I don't want to give up on him for a second time...

He was one of my highschool batchmates, but we never really talked, never became classmates. But as fate would have it, we still got to meet and talk over a common friend's brithday dinner. I was expecting the usual crowd, the people I grew up with highschool. But instead, I found a gathering of odd people thanks to the strange coincidence of most people not being able to come. I practically had no common grounds with any of them, save for the birthday girl. Other than that, they were all strangers for me.

His nickname's Berto, and was such a far cry from his highschool appearance, now having his hair down to his shoulders, tied into a ponytail. I didn't know him. Plain and simple. All I knew of him from highschool was he was annoying. And since we never became classmates, I never got the chance to know him, save for our chance encounter in second year when he asked for my name and played with it, calling me Nesvita, Belvita, Evita Peron, Nevermind. etc. >.>

And then, as the dinner progressed,it was then that I got to know him even for a bit.

"Relax lang tayo... bakit ba napaka-tense niyo?" sabay tingin sakin. "Lalo na ikaw."

It was just freaky coz, he was right. And so, I tried to relax a bit more, although failing miserably knowing that Berto could see right through me. And then, when dinner was well and done with a piece left for every meal we had, the others were cheering me to finish the last meals and Berto had to comment I ate so little. E ganun talaga ako kumain, bakit ba? Sorta unconscious I guess, I only eat so little when in gatherings. Blame upbringing. >.> But the main point is, he noticed such small detail. The last strike was when everyone had been happily telling stories and I was just laughing along. When things calmed down a bit, he turned to me and asked. "Ikaw, mag-kwento ka naman."

I was happy being left alone, and he goes on and prod. Such a strange person he was, to notice such small details and dares to be blunt about it. If I were a real cat, I would've bristled and hissed at him. But he was right, nonetheless... I wasn't being fair, not sharing my part, nor being as active as I usually was with my other friends around. My masks do not exist to him, it scares me.

Yet at the same time, I know there's no point in keeping masks.

Why I am being so, I don't know why... thanks to my annoying bro, and my stupudity, i just spent two hours re-uploading ym... and by the time i got back, everyone else had to log out, had to go. amfufu, all of them went out at the same time.... i don't know why i'm being all cranky about it, but I am... maybe it's just a really sucky day...

Warning: angst.

I don't know why she was upset. She pointed out her crush to me, while his back was turned to us. Of course, in my concept, to see if that crush is even worth it, I had to see the face. Since I knew what he was called, I called out his name. He turned. And since he didn't know me, he recognized my friend and waved back. Then after that, she was complaining to me, commenting on why I had to do such a thing. On hindsight, I think she thinks I did it to tease her... and she's making such a big deal about it, nadadabog pa and stuff, instead of just explaining. It's not in my nature to stay around people who wouldn't explain, and who are obviously mad at me. Sheesh, but seriously, during that moment, I found nothing wrong with what I did. I just wish she explained why she was so affected by that incident. I just wish she told me right away.

And at the same time, I wish I didn't walk away... maybe in the time i gave way to impatience, maybe she could have explained....

I don't want to open up my hurts again, ut sometimes, by not saying anything, I think I'll just go boom. I have this fear that my alter ego is starting to show up, although i can't be fully sure.. but when i was ranting in my head about his sudden hate and seeming dislike for my hyperness when it comes to pendongs, it felt like i was talking to myself, then holding back rage with all my might... in the end, i just hugged him, apologizing, whispering to him, although i doubt he heard me... but i don't care, i just had to say what i needed to, even if it was more to myself... after that tight hug, i felt dizzy, although it's really hard to explain why...

sort of... my mom's gonna get operated soon, it's minor, but it has long term effects on all of us in the family... and somehow, there's this feeling in my body that tells me i won't live long... and so many other thoughts that depress, but thanks to some friends, it became a great afternoon and evening spent with crazy antics although i got scolded by my parents when i got home past ten...

it was sweet the way people got to comfort me even though they didn't exactly know why i was depressed in the first place...

it was sweet that a certain someone finally got to hug another certain someone.

it was funny how his face got blocked by my umbrella because of the sudden unexpected hug.

it's cute the way he hugs.^^

i'll miss those entities... i know we'll still meet, but hopefully we wouldn't hate each other by then...

"I have no complaints about you or anything... it's just that - you're stoic. I can't - WE can't read what you are feeling. You're just like a robot. It would be better if you showed your emotions more, because you will either explode or implode if you keep it all in." -Sir Ren

Personally, I don't think there's anything wrong with being stoic. Actually, I like the label... to hell with what they think... but then again, at some point, he was right... it was either explosion or implosion.. but knowing me, I don't explode. I drown in tears... but I guess it would even be better to drown for real... coz no one will ever see my tears...